Worried...

I still haven´t gotten the test results from the doctors...and I´m getting really affraid...worried

:-(

As I said before..it could be something aswell as nothing...but it´s this waiting part that creates demons in my head...and my worries grow..

What if it´s something...I can´t handle that.

And then I hear freak scenarious from friends, how they know someone who found out in the last minute that they had cancer...or cell changes that were bad enough for them to have their entire uterus removed...with no chance of having children...

I called the centre of where they actually look at the tests...and they promissed to put mine in front of the line...this after I´ve explained about the actual outcome of the doctors appointment.

Most of all I am affraid because Eva...my sister in law, have fought through cervical cancer...and she did so well....but not everyone does.

And the nurse told me during this appointment that if it would have been something bad...my health would be bad in other ways...

Well....I´m still suffering from occasional dizzyness...headaches...belly ache...I´m often exhausted.

I hate this waiting game..

:-(

I wish I had "someone" here with me...