It was a weird day, didn´t feel at all like a birthday.
This health situation is eating me up inside, I am trying so hard not to worry and think positive...but I am alone here in this situation..
The day at the hospital, waiting for test results...was so hard.
I knew that something was wrong, and the hospital felt cold...not at all like the one back home. My doctor was nice and her assisting nurse, but the other staff didn´t even see me.
The nurse that gave me the ultra sound just stood up and rushed out of the room at the same time as she was telling me to get dressed and leave...
I was there from 10am-16pm, waiting.
It could have been much much worse, I am aware of this and I´m happy that it´s not, but never the less..so far, in my life, this is the worst I have been forced to go through.
I am now waiting to be called in for surgery, I am wondering how I´m going to get home...I will be put under, and after that you usually shouldn´t do anything that requires brainpower.
The tube...requires just that.
I worry about being away from work, I need money to live.
I am sad...I am.
That doesn´t make me weak or ridiculous.
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