I don't think I've been in this much financial stress since I moved away from home at 17 yrs of age, on well-fare, still in school and working weekends to make ends meet.
It started after leaving Dolce where I got paid on the 26:th, to then get paid in Armani on 30:th..already at that point I got slightly behind payment dates but not noticeable.
But when I left Armani and started my current job that's when it got worse, I now get paid on the 7:th every month, and with less or more days on each month I have now ended up owing an entire months rent £680..
So the problem is not about whether or not I'm paying rent it's just a bunch of sad circumstances that has brought me here.
Also with a slightly lower pay check I cannot save as I used to, and if I would give all my monthly savings to pay rent I'll see the light of life a year from now :-(
I will not be able to fly home, or to go to Milan for a trip that is soarly needed.
I have been looking at weekend evening jobs as a waitress with no luck so far, but to work more than my 40 hr a week that I already am pulling is going to kill me.
I have nothing to sell really..
I just don't know.
This is a stress that leaves me sleepless and sad.
Never did I think I'd end up here again.
Ashamed.
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